There are many moments in my life
where I felt like I should just give up completely and surrender my life to the void.
But I think in times were the entire internet is algorithmically designed to destroy your brain. Where politicians from certain parties just want you to not go to the voting booth, where work is either exhausting or meaningless - often both - it is not unreasonable.
So I decided that I would make it a habit to keep track of things that I am vaguely proud of and challenge myself to do it regularly.
This is not for the good happy days, this is for the bad days where I need to remind myself of why I get out of bed in the morning. I expect things to vary widely in terms of banality or competence. I’ll put the really cool stuff into Projects, but either way I will have done something and something is better than nothing.
Format
The game plan is to update this in a regular interval, at least more than once a month we’ll see how it goes. I set everything up to be extremely simple, so I have no excuses not to even on bad days.
It will always be in the vein of “I am not done doing x” or “I am done doing y because reason”.
Feeling proud of yourself in the face of depression feels like an act of rebellion that fuels me just a little more each day